Attitude adjustment

I registered on monster.com the other day so I could look for jobs in my area. It was a fairly humiliating. There doesn't seem to be a whole lot of call for multimedia producers here, so I'm out of luck if I want the kind of job I'm good at, have exerience in and enjoy. That leaves a bunch of other jobs I may or may not enjoy, be good at, and couldn't even get if I tried because I'm not qualified.

The good news is the Navy wants me, and they have a lot of exciting career opportunities. But my mom told me once that they have this thing in the armed forces called discipline. I didn't know what she was talking about, so she explained that it means when someone tells you to do something, you have to do it. So I don't think I'll be joining the Navy, even though I like their hats.

I think my problem is not the job situation, but my attitude. I live in a great house in a great city with my great family, and I don't have to worry about money. I have a great life, and I remind myself every day how lucky I am. But to quote a friend quoting Reese Witherspoon quoting June Carter Cash: I'm just trying to matter. How much can I matter, really, when my words of wisdom come third hand?

Seriously, I need to go back to my New Year's resolution and figure out how to be comfortable with myself regardless of what I'm doing. Or not doing. Unfortunately, neurotic New Yorker that I am, I find that easier said than done. I think pot would help, but that might not be the responsible choice for a mom, it being illegal and all.

But wait a minute - maybe pot is the answer! Clearly what I have to do is sign up with the good folks at NORML and devote my time and energy to reforming marijuana laws. There's nothing like a little political activism to give someone a sense of purpose and self worth. And when I'm done I can get baked.