Stop!

Last year I decided to give up making New Year's resolutions. Or maybe I just forgot to make one. Or maybe I did make one, but I forgotten what it was, and

Anyhoo, this year I've decided to give up on giving up New Year's resolutions, and resolved to give up something else. The only succesful resolution I've ever made was to stop doing something; years ago I decided to quit being so mad at my sister for whatever grievances I'd been hauling around since we were kids, and it worked great. Letting go of all that meaningless crap allowed me to concentrate on why I'm mad at her in the here and now.

Just kidding. We get along great now. My point is that instead of trying to spend more time writing or doing yoga or being charitable or, you know, productive in some way shape or form, I will not try to do these things. And not only will I not try to do these things, but I resolve to stop feeling like such a loser for not doing them.

Cause here's the thing: I spend a ridiculous amount of time and energy worrying, fretting, stressing, agonizing about my lack of personal achievement and overall contribution to the world. I mean, it's not like I'm a drain on society or anything - why am I not content with what I've got? I think I'd be happier if I stopped beating myself up about not doing more, and I think happy is as good as it gets in this life. And who knows - if I'm happy, I might be more productive!

Dang. It's not even New Year's Eve and I've already broken my new resolution.